Backtrack : Mid-December
I will quiet you with my love.
- Zephaniah 3:17
I thought I had it all figured out.
I've never been this strained with the noise of my thoughts. I know the signs, I see it clearly :
There is unnecessary stress, emotions that shouldn't be triggered, and it sometimes chokes me to tears.
I'm one that feels deeply, when it comes to the things I am most passionate about; when it comes to the little things that bring me joy; when it comes to the people I love; when it comes to the things that matter to me.
I've learned how to take things one day at a time, and enjoy the daily surprises God has in store for me, like how the moon today subtly smiles or how cold the morning is... oh yes, I feel deeply to the point that I sigh in awe, or squeeze my pillows tighter for a cozier snooze.
Just as there are two sides of the coin, I didn't know I'd also feel deeply when it comes to the things I fear, the circumstances I try to over-analyze.
It can be crippling sometimes, but I am learning. Slowly learning how to let go of this fear I've never encountered before. I'm afraid, but the Lord is my safe haven. He holds my heart. His love is perfect. And perfect love casts out all fear.
Lord, ' ...even when I am afraid, I will trust in you. '
