I'm tired of losing myself.
I'm tired of starting all over again.
I'm tired of hoping for better days, when it's been constantly just okay....
I'm tired of fighting for myself.
I'm tired of being too much.
I'm tired of make believes
I'm tired of nursing my own tears, my own fears, my own heart aches.
I'm tired of wanting to just feel, and be consoled
I'm tired of singing the same song that made me weep tirelessly
I'm tired of the faint cries
I'm tired of the little girl inside who wants to scream
I'm tired of wanting to be held
I'm tired of enduring it all, alone
I'm tired of wanting to be more than what I'm not
I'm tired of staring across the sky without mesmerized eyes
I'm tired of not wanting more, not yearning for more
I'm tired of spiraling back to my dark, stoic self.
I'm tired of building myself up only to break again
I'm tired of how consoling myself makes me apathetic after
I'm tired of feeling so deeply about many things
I'm tired of believing it's okay even when it's not
I'm tired of feeling that I'm too hard to please
I'm tired of hurting people when I'm hurt
I'm tired of setting myself aside
I'm tired of wanting to be heard
I'm tired of making myself believe there's something worth the wait
I'm tired of making myself believe I have to wait in vain
I'm tired of saying I can still go on
I'm tired of apologizing for the way I am
I'm tired of being sorry for the things I shouldn't be
I'm tired of turning sadness into poetry.
I'm tired of wanting to be that carefree, sparkly, bubbly 18 year old again
I'm tired, just tired.
I'm tired of being okay when I shouldn't be
I'm tired of saying I'm not okay
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm tired of my strength.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm tired of being tired.
