Day 20 : Home - Searching to Waiting

My head is like a ticking time bomb. Every second is excruciating. I want to sleep like a lamb and be lost in my subconscious world for a couple of hours. It's only 5pm and I have 6 more hours of labor.

Earlier today, we went off searching for a new place to live in for the next few years until we'd find a perfect home where mama and papa can spend the rest of their years together. I love San Juan, but the area we live in has just caused too many issues. One, being health. My parents aren't getting any younger, and our house now is just too costly and spacious to maintain inside with just one househelp. The burden of two is heavily avoided due to problems in the past so I guess we'll only settle for one.

We scurried along streets in our hometown, praying He'd lead us to our future home. We found a couple of properties that fits our budget, and also found a few others that would be good for future investments.

I had moments where I thought to myself, you could get this house if you only have the money, or it atleast you're eligible to apply for a loan! Sure, there's PAGIBIG, SSS, Bank Financing, etc. I could even loan around 6 million! But reality says, W-A-I-T. It's not yet time.

It would be such a breeze to fast forward to the year where I'd be able to buy my own car, buy my parents their own retirement house, and establish my own business. That would be awesome! That would definitely be a testimony of how my vision became reality. But then again, God is preparing my heart, my character, my skills, for the best yet to come. Do I know how to drive already? Nope. Can I apply for a loan already? Nope. Do I know how to run a business, or do I even have an idea of what business I should get myself into? Nope.

Sometimes we have to understand that the hardship and challenges we are going through right now, especially how we develop our character in the process, are crucial factors that would determine if we are ready for what we dreamed of, or if we are ready for the best.

So even if it pains me now to wait, having that solid vision of what I want to be, what I want to give, what I want to achieve - will be my driving driving force everyday.
 "I'm going to be the number-one box-office star in all of Hollywood. . . It's the same procedure as body building. What you do is create a vision of who you want to be, and then live into that picture as if it were already true." - Arnold Schwarzenegger