I'm nearly halfway through 365 and I'm not sure if I should keep going. . . Back when I started this, the plan was to write every day to complete 365 days in a year. It went well for a couple of days, but it was either the lack of time or the empty train of thoughts when I had time that made it impossible to achieve my initial goal. Then, I thought - perhaps I could just continue the numbers and just write without restrain, and that's exactly what I've been doing for the past few months.
It just feels a little dragging now, as if something tying me down to this seemingly pointless numbering. My journey sure won't end after 365 stories, but it feels as if nearing 365 has no end goal. What happens after 365? Hmm. It would be good to cut this numbered-theme of 365 and just live and write freely as I will.
At some point, half of me wants to keep going and see what happens after 365. It surely won't be exactly 215 days left, since I don't really write daily. There's this thrilling thought however - perhaps after 215 more stories to complete 365 adventures, I'd start my lifelong journey as a queen.
Ah, mixed thoughts, mixed feelings!
The past years have been a preparation and transition phase. And now, there's just so much to share, so much that I am, so much to be, so much to look forward to that I don't want to keep myself contained in 365! Once a princess, always a princess.
I'm taking my walk as a queen now.
Am I, really?
